in Paris I am a girl with a bruise on her body. in Paris I am a girl who had a dream and her dream came true but a dream coming true doesn't mean you can get away with perfection. in Paris I am a girl stealing the last moment of the light. in Paris I am a girl who listens to conversations floating around above her head and the words become soft and sugary and muted and the girl who I am stops listening to the words to take a photo of a wine glass on the table over by the window. in Paris I am...
2024-11-04 19:39:38 +0000 UTC
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secret
2024-11-02 18:51:56 +0000 UTC
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how do u want to spend
2024-11-02 18:48:33 +0000 UTC
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When will we meet again
2024-10-30 17:59:54 +0000 UTC
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there are images I can see and surfaces I can touch, no matter where I am in the world, every airport, every hotel, every metro station, every office building, what can I do? go back in time and secure a future? the fear of being alone grips me, not because of solitude but because of money, closing the cafe alone at night, the unrealistic expectations of what can be achieved by one person in thirty minutes, I lost weight (but never enough)
2024-10-15 17:40:00 +0000 UTC
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There is something I want to tell u but I can’t so I will just say…
2024-10-14 19:22:56 +0000 UTC
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I heard myself telling them that I love to help people. I just love it. I can’t get enough. I just love to help and help and help until I can’t help anymore but I will still try. I will listen and listen and listen until all I can hear are the wings of a pigeon beating in my ear. They nodded and smiled as I told them this and they typed little notes into their laptops. A smile is an item for sale and I am selling mine, selling selling selling selling selling. The supply never ends because...
2024-10-12 17:31:14 +0000 UTC
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I did not feel so bad when he slapped me. I felt quite bad when he told me to meet him in that bookstore and then as I stared at a first edition of Breakfast at Tiffany’s he texted me to say he had gone home. I did not feel bad when he told me to do my job. I felt very bad when I dragged the heavy bags of rubbish down to the bins at the end of the alley. I felt bad when he asked me to wear my sexiest lingerie. I did not feel bad when he said he was watching me. I felt bad when I was alone i...
2024-10-09 17:33:33 +0000 UTC
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sorry sir
2024-10-09 17:03:28 +0000 UTC
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putting on my apron and my stockings, do u like my uniform? it tells u that i am being good, i am doing my work, i have a place to be, i am in my place, u can define me... let me know if u can tell me who i am...
2024-10-09 16:04:05 +0000 UTC
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When I wake up alone in a room that is only mine. I work on my bedroom floor all night. When I am on a train to Paris. My hair is clean and I wear the same black outfit over and over again. A friend tells me he has touched himself while looking at my self-portraits. When I drink something with gin in it. The man at the post office listens to my question without interrupting me. A dog pushes his nose into my leg on the train. When I decide to not buy the beautiful long red dress. I leave early...
2024-10-07 17:02:36 +0000 UTC
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I considered my options… sweet silent girl, ruthless girl, nurturing girl… “do you respect those people?” yes, they are the only ones who have ever given me something I could really use. I was happy to belong to another person but god decided I hadn’t worked hard enough yet to earn true love. deplete, disappear, demure, decorate…
2024-10-05 19:56:07 +0000 UTC
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I’ll be honest w you, I felt resentful, I resented those shiny white surfaces, white shows the dirt and the dust, I resented every single person who could afford to put me in their home, that’s just how I felt okay, let me feel it
2024-10-04 21:23:03 +0000 UTC
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what do u want to know?
2024-10-04 20:00:51 +0000 UTC
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disappear
2024-10-02 17:41:51 +0000 UTC
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Satisfaction
2024-09-29 18:14:08 +0000 UTC
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I decided to remember who I truly am and get a real job! It can be good to work in a physical way, to make your body really feel something. My body worked hard when it was at a desk, it worked hard when it was in love and it works hard now. When you lie in bed at night and your body aches, that’s how you know you really exist. Dealing with the messes made by other people can be tiring but to be completely honest with you, I’m good at it. I’m good at improving your life. You might not ev...
2024-09-29 18:10:57 +0000 UTC
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Let me know
2024-09-23 16:38:43 +0000 UTC
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i don't know anything about u, i know everything about u
2024-09-17 16:45:03 +0000 UTC
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connect or disconnect
both bring me to a late night
in wealthy streets
i am only ever hopeful
i am only ever a lamb
2024-09-17 15:25:04 +0000 UTC
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I would love to forgive you but I can't, I am in the big white bed of the city, you are watching me
2024-09-16 20:13:03 +0000 UTC
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reconciling the opportunity for freedom with the knowledge of futures and difficulties
2024-08-24 16:34:26 +0000 UTC
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The world is a veil The world is an almond The world is an invitation The world is a stairwell The world is an acrylic nail scraping tears of exhaustion from a powdered face
2024-08-14 15:12:38 +0000 UTC
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prepared, sweet, accommodating, observant, quiet, clean, discarded
2024-08-14 15:09:20 +0000 UTC
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u have it all, u are greedy in the afternoons
2024-08-14 15:05:23 +0000 UTC
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try to unlock it, start over and over and over again to be the perfect... perfect sweet girl. erased myself into the bin x100. renew with the hope of a rose. plastic breakable lock. the bravery is so small, so embarrassingly small, sorry, but still, i think, i am doing it, the girl...
2024-08-13 10:28:53 +0000 UTC
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everything is beautiful, then u remember, who will help me, i will have to help myself
2024-08-03 16:59:06 +0000 UTC
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days seem to pass quickly. i am tired and my skin is moisturised. my white towels are covered in make-up stains. i feel like i drink endless drinks all day, a huge glass of water and coffee in my bed and then coffee and lemonade at the library then another coffee then coke zero in the park and a lot of water then some wine later and more water maybe tea. my room is so hot. outside is a relief. i see a family of foxes from my window, playing in the piles of dirt in the evenings. a bed has never b...
2024-08-03 16:58:06 +0000 UTC
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imagination is money
2024-08-02 22:07:02 +0000 UTC
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just some advice
2024-07-28 17:41:19 +0000 UTC
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