Hello my loves π my birthday is on Sunday and itβs really cr..
Added 2024-10-04 19:28:16 +0000 UTCHello my loves π my birthday is on Sunday and itβs really creeped up on me. I am feeling really depressed about it to be honest which is so unlike me π© I have really been struggling for what seems like forever now. Iβm trying to not judge myself for the amount of time it is taking for me to seemingly βcheck back inβ to reality, but it gets hard when my own birthday is just like meh and making me feel sad. I think part of the reason is because I normally do my birthday ear eating video and I canβt do that on YouTube now and I feel lost on what to do really because idk I just feel so disconnected from everything and everyone and I know I need to just push myself to be more active and stuffβ¦I just feel so, idk I donβt feel like the person I was able to present and I donβt want to share this depressed version of myself and find myself isolating more. I know itβs my own doing with negative thought patterns, but itβs still a challenge. Anyway, I share this because it makes me feel better to get it off my chest and admit that Iβm doing βmehβ lol. Also just like the state of the world, whewβ¦ we are getting bombarded! Anyway, I truly do send all of you love and good energy daily (even when I am gone from the internet) because I appreciate you so much and I so desperate like want to be back here for you π©ππ Anyway, so Iβll probably be doing more birthday stuff when I feel happier even if itβs past my birthday lol. Iβm going to schedule some stuff tonight because I have a few things to get out that youβre definitely going to really enjoy! And I am sending you a big hug!! π€
