sooo ive been trying to be on my spiritual shii lately but i really hate meditating ๐ญ๐ญ like ik its good to sit w ur thoughts and whatever but im really bad at it๐ first i get bored.. then i start judging myself and feel bad.. or i start thinking naughty and get ina mood ๐ like i really dont see how this can help me not to mention i CANNOT sit upright for nothing ๐ญ like after acouple minutes i start to slouch and my back gets tired im just a mess