July 2025 Dev Diary

Hi everyone, Thank you for your support and patience over these past 6 months for my latest comic project. Things are very different now fro

Hi everyone,

Thank you for your support and patience over these past 6 months for my latest comic project. Things are very different now from when I first started the short-format project, which has left me deliberating over how best to move forward for the next chapter.

By no means of exaggeration, I've spent a good deal of the past 4 decades in a constant, low-key state of fight or flight modes. This was especially so living in a dysfunctional and emotionally abusive family until I was finally able to run away from home in my 30s and take that plunge into independence to rebuild my life. Even then, the road to recovery and course-correction was no easy task. My neurodivergence and resulting inability to socially integrate into Singapore society meant that I was job hopping most of the time, rarely able to find a role or environment I could reasonably settle in. Existential panic and a desperation to survive had been a recurring theme all these years, until finally, it wasn't anymore.

In May this year, 6-months after settling into a home of my own, it finally hit me what this numbing feeling of ennui was - I was falling into a depression from some degree of PTSD. Having been in survival mode for a good 40 years meant that I had become deeply conditioned to expect the worst, and paranoid that whatever good I got to experience would suddenly, inexplicably disappear. After becoming a homeowner, I am finally met with normalcy, and I've no idea what it means to live a normal life.

I needed to get out of my own headspace and be with people. With my term break still ongoing, I took the opportunity to take a road trip up north to Kuala Lumpur to reconnect with furry friends whom I was close with. A furry rave event, "Code: Arson" provided the pretext for me to justify the trip and accommodations, given how they had been fans of DJ Sorami. Given how I'd socially clammed up again despite returning from FurDU, this was a much-needed escape. I really let loose during the rave. Outside of the events, our conversations were unfiltered and ludicrous.

With all that said, I am currently in no proper state of mind to be working on long-format projects, let alone horny comics. It's crazy to see how productive I had been between October 2024 and March 2025, but a lot of that has fizzled out. While I don't wish to believe that my productivity has been tied to a constant chemical state of panic and worry, I'm also not sure what is happening internally at this point. To that end, I will be freezing my Patreon project for the month of August 2025 and working towards a different model.

With the next update dropping on 5 June, moving forward beyond August, patrons can expect a content roll-out primarily focused on 2 Patreon-exclusive horny sketches, and 1 colored piece per month. While it will be difficult to forecast what the precise nature of the content will be, it's easier for me to say that it'll feature mostly self-indulgent sketches I do for my own art therapy. In other words, my Patreon project will primarily be for folks who still want to support my content in a less structured, more spontaneous format while I continue navigating this uncharted chapter of my life. I will mostly be exploring and experimenting with art associating with my personal kinks, such as but not limited to, hyper, muscle growth, size difference and the stuff you might find on my Bluesky account.

For those of you who've enjoyed and supported my recent weight-gain comic, thank you so much. I do apologize for not responding to the recent comments promptly. As I've mentioned, I'm currently in a reclusive state which makes the simple act of communicating or reaching out a challenge. For now, I'm focusing on other things that I can work on rather than fret over where I'm stuck at currently - namely dance - which my passion for was reinvigorated by the furry rave event I recently attended. I'll be entering an online dance battle called Fur Grounds, so here's hoping I can even make it past the pre-tournament selection.

I do apologize for the less-than-optimistic tone, especially given the state of reality we currently live in. But that is all that I can publicly share for now without making promises I can't keep. I will continue to check in on Patreon over the course of July to keep patrons updated. Meanwhile, I'll be focusing on my physical and spiritual health and try to find myself in a better place.

Stay swole and take care.

Snares
July 2025