Lunar Wildling

By Maya Tihtiyas, with Sydney DeHaven

Things have shifted for me internally.

Huge shifts.

The kind of movements and moments that feel too consuming to even try to capture in words.

Words feel stagnant and flat compared to the dynamic & flowing life that I am surrounded by right now.

I know there will come a time for reflection, I feel the images and written poetry stirring in me already.

I hope you are all doing well & soaking in these last days of August - autumn is saturating the air here a...

B R E A K

Hey all  ✨

First of all, I want to thank you so deeply for being here and supporting me. Truly, it is a blessing and an honor, and I am so thankful. 

Secondly! I decided I need to take a break; after many months of feeling uninspired to engage the digital realm in this capacity... 

If you want to delete your pledges; I completely understand! And I thank you so much for your support. If you feel inspired to continue to support me while I'm on break, that is a...

Reflections

Photo by Greg Bennett 

Hey y'all!

I hope that you all have been enjoying midsummer; the sticky-sweet juicy moments that drip down your lips and flood through your being.

July has brought a lot of beautiful shifts to my life. I found Community. A group of people I can come home to. It feels surreal, what I have always wanted. People to cry with, cook with, be grumpy with, adventure with, and all together weave an ease in daily life between our collective...

Sea Wolf

by Angela

The older I get, the more I value my own independence. 

The more I appreciate being able to rove to my own rhythm. 

The more I appreciate the people who understand my need for spaciousness, and who celebrate this aspect of my being as an important and beautiful part of myself—not a deficit, or an offense to them. 

Yesterday evening, I went swimming at sunset with my loves, and I ended up floating out to the middle of the lake...

Camera Roll

Here are some images from my phone from this month 😊

I have been soaking up the beauty of these midsummer days. Opening my heart as friends become lovers, letting Love pour into me like amber honey magma and soaking in the nectar of it all, after feeling convinced I would never feel that warmth again.

Loosening my deeply engrained ideas about monogamy and what Love looks like in this lifetime, for me.

Enjoying deepening my connections to my community; seeing each other ...

Woooooosh

Images by Deepak Bardhan

So you may have noticed; my energy for this platform (and all digital realms) has plummeted this month.

I’ve spent a lot of time in my head about it; feeling poorly for not modeling more, producing more, sharing more. I’ve felt poorly for feeling the way I’m feeling, and have spent a lot of energy churning through guilt instead of being honest about where I’m at (a lifelong lesson for me.)

The truth is, I have felt so called to live in my f...

Summertime Sadness

Polaroids by Sydney DeHaven

More to come from this shoot - !

I hope y’all are finding joy & hope amongst these dense moments, time to dream and imagine all the beauty that could be.

More than ever before, I feel the gentle yet firm call to enjoy and make the most of each day. With the illusion of control & predictability more or less shattered, I am feeling and leaning into the art of presence in each day. Finding a peace with not-knowing. With simply taking thin...

The Female Form in the Maine Landscape

These images were from a workshop that I had the pleasure of participating in last year with the lovely Laurie Klein. 

Been feeling tender the last few days; I feel certain boundaries of mine transforming from barbed wire to tenacious wisteria; hearty and strong and certain, but also beautiful, soft, vibrant, alive, enjoyable even. 

I have been feeling my emotional hooks disintegrating; a sense of levit...

by Matt LaPierre

It's hard to even know where to begin... 

The last few months, have disrupted the system that we have all been living in.

They allowed the People to really reflect, to communicate, to see with clear eyes (beyond the day-to-day distractions that capitalism and consumerism so cleverly use to keep the wool over our eyes) just how inherently unjust this system is.

How everything—our language, our values, our actions—or inactions—are steeped in white supremacy, colonia...

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by Anna Madsen

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By the loveliest Anna Madsen 

I got to see Anna, and co-create, for the first time in months.

It felt so good. We spent over two hours in the parking lot talking animatedly and loudly, gesturing wildly, to the point where my voice was hoarse for two days afterward. Anna & I have a dynamic that feels like we have known each other for lifetimes. We can speak in shorthand, and there is an ease in understanding each other, which makes our time together feel s...

Over It

Photo by James Shedd

I'm over it.

Part of me wants to go back and rephrase that to make it more palatable, but nah. It's sharp and sure, I'm over it.

Over the ways that I have been making art, and a lot of the ways I see art being churned out as perfunctory content on social media. 

Don't get me wrong—I'm proud of the work I have done, and amazed by the folks with whom I have had the honor of working. 

It just feels stale + stagnant and I'm ready to m...

Strawberry Fanta Zine

A few years ago, I asked some of my friends to help me produce a zine. Above is the compilation of images that came together; all with the prompt: if you could tell your younger self anything, what would it be? 

I was really amazed at what each person came up with; and how creative and unique each page was. I would love to create another zine; if anyone here is interested in contributing let me know...

THANK YOU ☁️🌞🌲

This photo is from a backpacking trip in the Sierras, taken by my dear friend Meera after we scrambled up the boulders overlooking Cathedral Lake barefoot for hours (our campsite was by the lake...)

Thank you SO much for the continued support, loves.

I am honestly continuously overcome with gratitude for the relationships I've developed through this platform; it is truly an honor to be here with you.

Do you have any questions for me? I would be so happy to a...

THANK YOU.

Photos by Brianna Fern

"Thank you" doesn't even feel adequate to communicate how fucking grateful I am for your support.

I wish that I could describe it, but words simply cannot do it justice.

It makes my spirit feel supported, uplifted, shrouded in golden light...

I feel it deep in my belly.

It gives me butterflies.

What a gift, to be supported in my path.

To be supported by you.

Especially in this time of deep...

Restless

I am restless.

My mind races, trying to cling to something—anything—to take hold of,

when so much feels uncertain.

Obsessive thoughts march through my head like a parade;

loud, overwhelming, impossible to ignore.

These thoughts fill the void with

what I want to do, 

who I want to be, 

what I need to buy to achieve these things;

—but there is no peace in this place.

Endless longing,<...

Full Set with Kelsey Gayle ✨

Polaroids by Max Marshall ✨

As we're navigating these uncertain times,

I just keep the serenity prayer on the forefront of my mind.

I can't tell if I have gotten good at detachment, or if I've been slightly disassociated;

but, whatever is unfolding, 

is unfolding.

All we can do is respond. 

I have been trying to allow fear to pass through,

but not be overcome by a fear mindset that is all-too-familiar; whose grip I have worked hard to loosen over the past few years. 2020-03-25 02:40:06 +0000 UTC View Post

Co-create with Me

I had a fun thought this morning.

Want to co-create with me?!

If yessss,

send me along some words,

or poetry,

or a color palette,

or a concept, 

or a clothing item,

or whatever inspires!

and I will make some self-portraits today based on your input. 

(and credit your participation of course!)

Here are a Bunch of Photos of the Side of My Face :)

All right;

so today's shoot didn't quite work out for capturing my full-blown vision of 'Celtic goddess' (though I have some photos to come that embody the vibe) ...

Creating kind of works like that. For me, anyways. It unfolds organically, much as I try to impose a vision. 

Between the cold and rain, I ended up shooting indoors.

And, this is where I landed.

Profile photos.

You know why?

Because, for so long, I loathed my profile...

Isolation & Chill

Tomorrow, I am going to take some Patreon-exclusive self-portraits!

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I am going to play with doing make-up and hair by myself (wish me luck) and do some Celtic goddess-inspired portraits that I have been marinating on for months.

In this time, I've realized just how important creating is to my well-being. It keeps me SANE. For real. My soul needs it. 

So even though self-portraits lack the alchemy of co-creating that is my bread&butter, I think it will feel...

Night-Blooming

Wow!

Can anyone else feel all the different layers to what's happening right now?

Anyone else overwhelmed af? 

I can feel and trust that there is a beautiful rebirth on the horizon;

and yet, I am still struggling with anxiety,

restlessness,

unceasing thoughts,

overwhelm,

fear,

grief.

We are in the void, the nebulousness;

watching our flawed, but known and therefore comfortable, world collapse.

We have no option but t...

Shit's Crazy Right Now

I want to preface this post by saying that I hold a tremendous amount of compassion for anyone who is directly impacted by COVID19. These times are scary, uncertain, disorienting, and for some, devastating. I am highly privileged in being young, healthy, able-bodied, able to receive PTO, having a warm/safe home to stay, and being able to pay for two weeks of groceries up-front. I understand that there are so many people who don't have those luxuries; who are suffering a much higher impact.&nb...

Film Set by Maya Tihtiyas

Here are some film images that Maya captured on 35mm last summer.  ✨

It's been a while. In the last few weeks, I have

- dropped into my heart: I have been living in the very cerebral realm this winter, and have noticed recently that I am beginning to center back to the heart. More softness, more compassion, more attention placed on somatic sensation.

- moved into my home: I am in the process of moving, and it feels 2020-03-12 20:07:59 +0000 UTC View Post

Ferns

I love this woman.

That is all.

🤍

Comodel is Brianna Fern;

Images by the talented Lance Bowen

Dark Moon || Unpublished February

Wow, this Dark Moon has been intense.

Anyone else feeling it?

I personally adore it.

It feels like I have been standing in the Eye as the winds strip away all that has been keeping me bound. 

Obsessive, cyclical thoughts.

Engrained habits.

Limiting beliefs.

Heavy, dense, unhealthy attachments.

All of which I have been untangling—for years.

Fingers arduously and painstakingly pulling at each knot

loosening them...

Butterfly Days (Ellie)

When I was in high school, I had a boyfriend.

There were days when I needed more freedom and independence from the relationship, just to connect with myself and be present in my own life— he kindly called these my "butterfly days". (A very mature perspective for anyone, especially at such a young age.) 

I still have butterfly days. 

Days when I need to just fuck off,

not be held accountable to answering my phone,

disappear from my finely tuned / built...

Evergreen (music video stills)

This winter, I was so honored to be a part of Matt Hartke's Evergreen music video, shot by the lovely Max Marshall.  ✨

The music artist, Matt, reached out to me, and told me that he initially had not planned to have anyone else in the music video, but when he was scrolling through Max's photography, he saw me and knew I had to be in it. 

I am noticing lately that...

Olivia

I recently began a photography page, with the mission to capture moments like this: humans in their element, glowing in their sacred purpose. Everything about us softens and strengthens all at once, and our ethereal energies become fully embodied in our earthly forms. ✨

I truly do not think there is anything more beautiful, captivating, or magnetic than someone who is truly aligned and flowing. I believe we are all born with a purpose, and it is to be ourselves. It is...

by Mark Yaggie

My first shoot in a while —it felt good to come back into creating with renewed energy, and to do something a little different from the usual.